Daily Archive for November 12th, 2007

Broken silence

Sitting on my hands
for the school district superintendent and
for my mother, who gives her all everyday

My hands
stapled
to my seat
when you swooped in
unannounced
under summer cover
when school bells sit silent
and children play
in Richmond streets
navigating gunfire
while parents negotiate
drug deals
the unemployment line
two
sometimes three jobs
to make ends meets
unbeknownst
of your chair stealing tactics
robbin’ hoods
stealing from blacks
to give to whites
cuz black kids
don’t need new chairs
or new schools
or new shoes
and clean clothes
or good food and
this aint about chairs
its about us
tired
of always taking what you give us
and me sitting on my hands
but mom might lose her job
if I speak up
cuz you her boss and
damn good at firing people
who don’t know their place
so I muffle screams
behind lips
shut
keep quiet
when your eyes smile at me
as she introduces us in the hallway
at Stege School
I want to tell you
take your fake pleasantries
your filthy handshakes
deceitful grins
and sit on them

Prattling

A friend asked me if i was happy today, well technically yesterday, but I replied with an enthusiastic yes. I had a good week that ended very well. I got to workshop poetry with two of my favorite people in the world and I got to eat delicious food while doing so. Nothing beats food friends and poetry.

Of course I’m happy, what could I possibly have to complain about, but being the bipolar person that I am, there is always something. I think I’m crazy, Jane says I’m unlucky and then recants, telling me I’m the luckiest guy ever.

I don’t know what it is that’s bothering me lately, well, I know what it is but I refuse to accept that as the root of my insomnia or absurd feelings of dissatisfaction with the current state of my life. I shouldn’t let something so simple and silly get to me like this.

Really I’m ok or alright, which is better than all-wrong so i should get over myself and just be jovial for a change after all I really have nothing to complain about.

I need to run. I’ve been putting that off for too long. First thing in the morning I’m going to run, fast and far.